Causa indignação saber que o tão chamado de 'paraíso dos negros' não é tão paraíso assim. O Brasil lembra da população negra apenas no feriado de carnaval onde os batuques percorrem as ruas de Salvador e as quadras de escola de samba acompanhando as curvas das mulheres negras que esbanjam ritmo e sensualidade.
I remember what meat I always was, because they always saw it, which means that they will not unsee. My flesh will always be a problem. This Black, this fetish. It has given me so much trouble that I even wished I was never Black again! This flesh is such a serious problem that even the fruit, the children I bring into the world -they take them from me.
I want to be able to straighten my hair without being sure that it is a mark of resistance or wear makeup without having to mix two different tones because everything is too light or too dark. I want to be able to talk to white people without having to deconstruct racism or having to prove to everyone that my blackness is not only the color of my skin but in my soul and the intensity of my struggle.